Christmas Actually Is All Around

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As I sit here on Christmas evening, I’ve found myself thinking about what Christmas means to different people. It’s Jesus’s birthday, of course, but the holiday is celebrated in many different ways by people who believe many different things. There’s an overarching “holiday spirit” that infects us, and takes on a variety of forms. I’ve seen Christmas manifest itself in several ways over the last few days.

Christmas is nighttime Embarcadero runs with friends, followed by fries.

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Christmas is a Christmas Eve trail run with mom, a beautiful day with some big hills to boot.

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Christmas is cinnamon rolls, cookies, waffles, more waffles, more cookies…

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Christmas is spending hours setting up what seemed like thousands of paper bags filled with dirt and votive candles two feet apart across two huge corner lots, only to have the end result be completely worth it.

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IMG_0637(Please note the bottom sign: Occupy Christmas! One man controls 99% of the presents!)

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Christmas is time with family.

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Even the adopted family that barks.

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Christmas is receiving Funfetti cake, pancake mix, a waffle maker, and The Stick for Christmas, and recognizing that your loved ones know you pretty freaking well.

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Christmas is watching movies that are definitely Christmas movies, some that are debatable, and others that most definitely are NOT.

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But to me, most importantly, Christmas is a time to reflect on the faith that shapes my life that defines my heart, that gives me comfort in times of turmoil, that gives me hope in times of despair.

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The holidays have been pretty loaded for me these last few years. In 2008 I was overseas and lonely, away from all I held dear; in 2009 I was home for two weeks after 15 months abroad and in extreme culture shock and confusion; in 2010 I had just returned home after 27 difficult months overseas. The post I wrote last year really shows where I was at that time—grateful.

This holiday season has been hard. Instead of filling consumed by joy and love, I’ve been, to be honest, a bit sad. Loneliness has ruled in my mind over togetherness. Stress has overwhelmed peace. But finally this weekend I’ve been brought back to Earth, to focus on what truly matters instead of getting caught up in everything else.

This week is my one year anniversary of returning home from Africa, one year since going vegetarian, one year since the most recent chapter of my life began. So it’s a little emotionally loaded. But what I pause to reflect on is LOVE. Just love.

I’m looking forward to an exciting new year ahead, to new beginnings and endings. And to remember the spirit of Christmas for what is truly is: a gift of love.

Merry Christmas everyone!

Courtney

PS. The winner of the coffee giveaway is MCM mama. Send me your address! : )

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What does Christmas mean to you?

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  • Scenes from Thankgsiving

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    I posted about what I was thankful for, and I could wax poetic about everything that happened here over the holiday, but that may not be the most exciting play by play. Instead, I’ll leave you with a few shots from my Thanksgiving. I hope yours was as full of joy.

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    So much to be thankful for!

    Courtney

    Hope your holiday was great. Two more days to enter my free dessert giveaway : )

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  • Labor Day Eatventures

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    I REALLY, really needed a weekend.

    Last week was rough with 5AM wakeup calls every day for booty-kicking bootcamps and entirely not enough sleep. Next week begins with a 4:30AM wakeup call to head to Utah for most of the week. Labor Day weekend, how I needed you.

    Friday night I was pretty exhausted but I had big plans with my girl Talia for jam making. Yes, this is an important activity. I had delusions that I would leave work early but of course there was a nice handful of us in the office at 5:30PM on Labor Day Friday and that was when I threw in the towel and just left. I picked up Tali and her collection of pots and headed to my Haight Street Hobbit Hole. First, however, we needed grub. We headed to Kezar Pub in Cole Valley and split a veggie burger and a prawn quesadilla.

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    Then it was home for jam making. We used the same Strawberry Jam with Balsamic Vinegar recipe I’ve already posted on the blog and settled in for the long haul. Four hours to make 13 jars? Yeah. That. In the meantime we chatted about everything and even watched half an episode of the Bachelor Pad (barf. Never again!)

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    Totally worth it though in the end for great jam. A pyramid of it, in fact!

    Saturday I was soooooo excited to sleep in after the exhausting week and my nearly-1AM jam-caused bedtime, but of course I woke up at 7AM and couldn’t get back to sleep. Boo. After a big breakfast fail and more successful second attempt, I hopped in the ‘Sub and headed off to Santa Cruz for a day on the beach.

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    A day on the cold, windy beach with my blanket wrapped around me tightly. Totally worth it though, as I got to catch up with some old friends from Peace Corps in Mozambique. It was great to get out of the city if even only for a day. We had pasta for dinner which brought me right back to Peace Corps big parties. Easiest way to feed a bunch of people when you’re cooking on a tiny charcoal grill! Smile

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    Sunday I managed to wake up in time for the Cheesy Run! I ran 10 miles, the majority of it with Katie, Alyssa, and Layla, which was great fun. I missed the Cheesy part of the cheesy run to hang out with a friend, but got to check out Café Flore on the corner of Market and Noe streets for the first time and enjoy my own cheesy spinach frittata. And it was a gorgeous day out. Perfect Sunday afternoon.

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    After a much-needed Sunday afternoon nap, I grabbed a couple jars of jam and jumped on the bus down to the Mission where I was going to meet Cate and Alyssa and their SO’s for dinner at Big Lantern.  got there early so I jumped in this random, crowded bookstore next door and grabbed two guidebooks, one for SF and one for Costa Rica. Can you say “next trip?”

    Big Lantern was AWESOME! I really loved orange chicken back when I was an omnivore and their orange meatless chicken was spot-on. Granted, it was breaded, fried and covered in goopy orange sauce so I guess you can’t really lose, but still. Other dishes included the dim sum veggie combo, orange meatless beef, and kung pao tofu (I kept stealing bites off of Cate’s plate, it was so good).

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    The afterparty was outside of Cate’s car enjoying just a few too many of her vegan chocolate cupcakes that tasted like pure heaven. I don’t really want to even think about how many I ate. SO GOOD.

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    And this all brings me to today—Labor Day. I didn’t really make plans, which turned into working for at least 3 hours this morning (not ideal) and then absolutely needing to get out of the house as soon as possible. I knew I needed to do some more work online and a friend recommended Java Beach, the café right at the N-Judah turnaround at Ocean Beach. I was so excited until I got all the way out there and there was a long line, no tables, no one looking like they were going to leave anytime soon, and tons of people already poised to pounce. I had waited in the line anyway so I impulsively ordered a hot apple cider and then even more impulsively ordered a cookie at the counter to meet the $5 credit card minimum.

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    It took me about 20 minutes to get my drink and at this point it was almost 2PM and I was absolutely starving (had breakfast at 8) so I pretty much inhaled the cookie and then headed over to their sister café, Beachside, for half a vegan banh mi to go.

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    I LOVED banh mis when I was in Vietnam, but they were so good because of the delicious pate and sauce on them. This vegan version had a slab of tofu marinated in something, with onions, parsley, and carrot on it. It was pretty good, but also I ate it in what seemed like three bites as my stomach was on the verge of digesting itself. It’s probably REALLY good with the homemade aioli that I unfortunately eschewed.

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    Realizing I wasn’t going to get any laptop space down at OB, I hopped back on the N-Judah down to the inner sunset and landed at the Old Jerusalem Café, where I sit blogging and thinking about just how much I still have to do today. 4:30AM will come way too soon, but at least I’ve spend the majority of the weekend having a lot of fun with friends! And eating a bit too much.

    Off to finish the blog, then to laundry and exercise! Hope everyone had a GREAT labor day weekend.

    Courtney

    What were your long weekend highlights?

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  • You Can’t Buy Love, But You Sure Can Chocolate-Dip It

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    And that, my friends, is how I spent my Valentine’s Day.

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  • What Christmas means to me

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    First of all, Merry Christmas, to everyone out there who celebrates it! I hope your day was as special as mine.

    The holidays are always a very interesting time of reflection for me. It always seems a bit contradictory how the time of the year that is theoretically supposed to be about family and friends and love and the most important things is often completely drowned out by materialism and stress. The holiday season in America seems to me to be a distinct social phenomenon that starts at 4AM on Black Friday in still-dark mall parking lots and continues through post-Christmas sales. Sometimes, through all the parties and forced present-buying and mall visits and holiday hustle and bustle, the meaning of Christmas gets lost. I hear people say that they spend so much time frantically “preparing” for the holidays that they rarely manage to actually enjoy them.

    I missed the holiday season this year, arriving home on December 23, and not walking into a single store besides a supermarket on Christmas Eve. Part of me is sad to have missed the holidays–the anticipation and buildup, the red cups at Starbucks, the countdown to Christmas, preferably with advent calendars with chocolate in them. I haven’t been in the States for the holiday season since 2007! But with everything else stripped away, it has given me a chance to reflect on what Christmas truly means to me.

    First and for most, for me, Christmas means the birth of Jesus, the son of God who I believe to be my savior. This is the Christmas story, the good tidings of great joy. My faith is the cornerstone of who I am, and so for me, to make Christmas about anything else BUT Jesus falls flat. For me, Christmas is about God giving us the greatest gift we could ever receive. This is how I feel. Many people celebrate Christmas who are not Christians–the day has become MUCH bigger than that and that is completely okay–everyone is entitled to their own beliefs. But for me…

    Christmas is not about commercialism.

    It is about God and love and hope.

    For me, Christmas is not about spending money.

    It is about spending quality time with friends and family, people that you love.

    For me, Christmas is not about rushing around from place to place or party to party.

    It’s about taking a slow walk through the neighborhood with no other purpose but to look at the lights and the luminaries.

    For me, Christmas isn’t about going to church to see a rock concert.

    It’s about celebrating with hundreds of other people who are rejoicing in the wonders of His love and the company of loved ones.

    For me, Christmas is not about big fancy dinners.

    It’s about peanut butter blossoms for breakfast and puppy chow for dessert.

    For me, Christmas isn’t about a huge perfect tree with two-tone matching ornaments perfectly spaced.

    It’s about a Charlie Brown-type tree, balding and slanted, weighed down with an eclectic collection of ornaments produced mostly in elementary school art classes. That’s a perfect Christmas tree.

    For me, Christmas isn’t about big stacks of presents with impeccable store-done gift wrapping.

    It’s about personal, thoughtful gifts wrapped in Nordstrom boxes that have been used every Christmas for half a decade (or more).

    It’s about showing you care with an offer from the heart, be it a gift or kind words, a comforting touch, or genuine interest in concern in another.

    (Caption: “To make you feel pretty, oh so pretty. Also so you don’t stink.” My sister is looking out for me, coming back from Africa and wanting nothing more but to “feel pretty” after two years of sweat, pimples and bad hair.)

    Christmas isn’t about new iPhones (that I still can’t figure out) or new running jackets or Starbucks cards…

    It’s about pigs in a blanket on the couch with the family and the dogs and Home Alone on the TiVo.

    It’s about blankets and hugs and cocoa.

    It’s about midnight pancakes on Christmas Eve, tea, pajamas and snuggles.

    It’s about silly traditions like calling up the chimney to Santa and ringing the jingle bells incessantly.

    It’s about pausing to take account of what’s important in your life.

    It’s about recognizing that while there may be many things that we want, there are very few things that we actually need.

    For me, the love of family and friends and a little bit of faith in God and in the world is all I need.

    Sometimes that gets lost in the craziness and the stress of our daily lives.

    But if there is any time to refocus and take pause, to give thanks, to tell people that you love them and that your life would not be the same without them…

    It’s Christmas.

    For me, Christmas isn’t about what I don’t have or what I wish I could afford or wish I could be given.

    It’s about realizing that everything I need I already have right here. The love of my family, the love of God, the faith that there is beauty yet to be revealed in this life–

    love

    faith

    peace

    harmony

    grace

    hope

    love.

    For me, that is what Christmas is about.

    Merry Christmas, everyone.

    What does Christmas mean to you?

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  • Things I have learned lately, Volume 1

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    1. Depending on technology and/or trying to blog seriously from Africa não vale a pena.

    I have been a really lucky Peace Corps Volunteer to have pretty consistent internet access, but after about three weeks without any (a fiber optic cable was cut underwater in the Indian Ocean… it happens, right?) I just have to accept that my blog cannot be what I wish it was, for now. I figured by this point I would have really expanded it and be posting regularly but, without internet, it just isn’t happening. And that is OK. Sure, I wanted to have a great blog FROM Africa, but I should be enjoying my last few months staring at the beach in my backyard instead of wishing I was more connected to the rest of the world. The rest of the world can wait—Africa can’t.

    2. The moments when it is hardest to keep things in perspective are the moments when it is the most important to do so.

    After said weeks of no internet, it finally started working on Monday. Which was cause for great celebration—until I realized my internet connection (the one in the wall that the cable connects to) had broken. This happened in my old office and here a year and a half later, it still hasn’t been fixed. Which means… no internet for me. I need to drift around to other offices and steal other people’s cables, which is annoying and inconvenient. And plus, this isn’t so I can play on Gmail or Facebook all day. At the moment I was trying to 1. Apply for graduate school 2. Contact professors 3. Try to change transoceanic airfare 4. Arrange a visa for Vietnam 5. Plan a safari and 6. I am sure there were more important things. I was sitting at my desk staring at my non-functioning internet about to cry. It felt so unfair! Why me? Why now? Then I snapped and realized how ridiculous it all was. Here I am, getting upset about my internet connection when hundreds of people, right outside my office, are hungry. They are sick. Some don’t have full roofs over their heads. Many more are uneducated. And those are just the milder issues that many people here face every single day. And yet still manage to find joy. I am beyond lucky, beyond privileged. I recognize this now, and yet I still get upset over something so stupid? It was a good wake up call. Even after two years of living in Africa, I get caught up in things that just aren’t important. I probably always will—but I hope I can recognize it and change my attitude.

    3. Sometimes I get up to workout only so I can check the day off on my calendar.

    Try this. It is extremely motivating. Even if I am tired, I don’t want a nasty X staring out at me the rest of the day. This might seem really stupid to some people. But it works for me.

    4. My bakery sells brown bread.

    This was a life changing discovery which led immediately to this life changing sandwich. Problem is that now I think the expat lodges in town have discovered this so apparently every single time I try to go buy some, já acabou (it is already gone). I guess I will count my blessings that maybe at some indeterminate point in the future I will get lucky and be in the right place at the right time.

    5. If there is a drink on the menu at a hotel called “THE AFRICAN DRINK,” you should definitely order it.

    Nothing else to say, really.

    6. Christmas in July should be a regularly scheduled annual holiday.

    Camille’s parents were in town visiting and she, ever the creative one, decided we should have a Christmas in July party with our compound and some visiting PCVs.

    Together we concocted a verifiable feast!

    Camille and her family made pumpkin soup, Alice made cranberry walnut bread, AJ made peach pies/empanadas from scratch, Sarah and I contributed Christmas cookies, fakel bites (as in bagel bites, but I used the beloved round fake bagel breads I buy in the market), salad, and green beans, and Eve made a DELICIOUS risotto (In Mozambique??), beet salad, and roasted our chickens. Which apparently Sarah and I were supposed to buy. Which led to the next lesson…

    7. If you forgot to buy frozen chickens, go buy three live ones in the market for a few dollars and pay your gardener to kill them.

    Followed by…

    8. Preparing three chickens in Moz (which haven’t been artificially pumped up so big that they cannot even stand up like American farmed chickens) does not make very much food.

    But we feasted.

    9. I don’t have very many special talents but I can make bad ass paper snowflakes.

    I am looking for any job opportunities in the field, let me know if you know anyone. I see a brilliant future for me and my scissors.

    10. Packages from home are even more awesome in your second year when you don’t get any mail anymore.

    A new stash of Clif bars (thank God!), flaxseed, some Kashi bars (which I have never tried) and crackers. Thank you mom and dad, for fueling my long runs and my hungry moments for the rest of my service.

    11. African women can SING.

    I got the opportunity to travel to Mabote (a rural village) to watch the recording of a song with some of our participants (these are women who participate in the making of traditional arts and crafts). The melodies were beautiful; I could listen to the same song over and over for an hour. Which we did. And it was just as beautiful the last time as the first.

    12. I am really going to miss the view from the back of a pickup truck.

    It sounds silly, but I came to that realization recently. The feeling of sitting in the back of a pickup, feeling the wind pummel you, looking out at the beautiful scenery around you, is indescribable. Sometimes it is beautiful, sometimes it is uncomfortable and cold, it is ALWAYS dirty, but yet it is a uniquely Peace Corps/African experience. And I am pretty sure I am not going to be spending much time hitchhiking in the back of trucks after this. So I need to savor those remaining moments no matter how thick the coat of dirt over me is becoming.

    13. It all works out.

    I feel like that is something that has been hammered home in my brain lately. It all works out. There are difficulties, problems, frustrations, everything. But more often than not, just breathe. Let it go. It works out.

    What have you learned lately?


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